Someday it'll be ok.

Someday it'll be ok, then I can laugh and smile again. I'll be able to speak your name without any tears, look at your picture accepting your no longer here.... But not yet. Now now.

Sunday I spent most the day at my olds. Luckily there was enough to distract me and when all else fails, annoying/arguing with Mark works. But when we were sitting outside out of habit i would put down my hand at the side of the chair waiting for a wet nose to nudge it or the smooth soft round head to push under my hand that I would then pat or the silky feel of his ears that i would rub and he would moan with delight as I got the right spot before shaking his head and look around all dazed before bouncing back wanting more.

When ever I leave, I still see him standing watching us, between the bench and the fridge and I now think, "bye chock" as I used to call it out after he got his kiss and cuddle when ever I went out.

*big sigh - cries*

But yeah. Its abit over 2 weeks and its harder than now than it was before. I broke down Friday night when we went around there, I miss him so much!

Anyways... I am so bored. Its the same old, same old everyday hey.... god i would kill for a bueno haha or a warm cookie sundae from macca's but as if they ever have any instore or have a working ice cream machine! Ahwell... under an hour to go now. TG!